I graduated college in May and I'm at a weird point. I apply to so many jobs to not even get an interview and when I do get to interview, my anxiety sabotages me. Anyone else go completely blank the second anyone asks you a question? The interviewer could ask me what my favorite color was and I'd still somehow choke up and say the wrong answer.
The problem might lie in the fact that I'm interviewing for so many jobs I'm not even sure I want. What do I say when they ask me why I want to work for the company? I need money? Something about the idea of spending all day in a cubicle makes my spirit want to jump out of my body. I've never been a good liar.
I've interviewed for jobs in the field that I would actually enjoy but it seems for now it's just a dream. Even when I know with absolute certainty that I can do the job, the interviewers seem to think otherwise.
My days lately have consisted of working on making a living off of my art and applying for computer jobs. I really need something to pay off because right now I feel too embarrassed to exist. People weren't joking about the 23 blues huh?
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